decision

when my life turns this way round, i decided that i should ignores all things that really bothers me..in the end...the pain slowly gone away..and i really thinks this is the only way that i can revive myself and forget all these things that keep me imagining thing that i shouldn't have..thank you for the memory, but that the end of it. you'll never see me talking to you again and yes, that a promise that i make.. you think that we can be normal again, but that is impossible..sorry, but this is who i am.

upDate from ME~ ^^v

hohoho...finally i got the "rajin"ness to type something for this blog..pretty sad too cause i haven't write anything for a while..so far, my life has been a disaster..i'm so busy with my life, plus there's many complication and conflicts occur....well, it's tough, but hey that's life..God never says that life is easy, He just promised that it'll be worth living..right?? i really hope that the relationship that i've been waiting for will work out someday, but from the way i see it, i guess it'll never happens..missing da moments that we used to have to, but since i've decided, there's no turning back..right now, i guess it's da first time that i'm having the busiest week of my life..i'm involved with convocation, and also got 2 assignment hav to be submitted by the end of tis week and next week..plus, i got mini robocon competition tis saturday...hurm.,..i wonder how would i handle all of tis...oh ya one more thing, I REALLY MISS YOU...i really do....

crap crap crap~!!!!

i noe that i done something wrong in your eyes, but that doesn't mean u hav da rights to use da flithy words to me...it seems that it just a small matter to you, but hey, it's not for me~!! i didn't use the filthy word myself cause i know that it'll make someone feels mad or angry or disgusted if i use the word.therefore my dear, i won't forgive you that easily..i'll make sure u regret that u ever said those words to me!!!

my dream guy? hohoho..

okay, for the time being, since i am so boring, let me reveal the ideal type of guy that i want to date wif.. hohoho.... hurmmmm, the first thing i would like to see in the particular guy is that how he care about me.. i like caring guy cause i know that he'll always be there for me to support and cares whats on my mind... oh ya, i like guy wif chubby cheeks..hohohoho..i dunno why, but i juz can't stop myself from staring at their's chubby cheeks and eventually falling for it..ahaha...it's juz an attraction for me i guess.. da next characteristics is, i want a guy that'll be able to share everything on his mind wif me..i don't like that he keep his secret from me cause this only will make a barrier in the relationship.. if he able to share everything wif me, thats mean i am one of his important person in his life... it's not easy for a person to share everything wif another.. if you do, thats mean you trust that certain person...so, if he'll be able to share everything wif me, that mean he trust me!! and trust is an important element in a relationship..hurmm, da next charactristic is, i like guy smarter than me! ahaha... cause he'll be able teach me things that i dunno.. u know, it'll be a great fun if ur love you teach you cause you'll treasure everything that he teaches and you'll never forget it..and imagine if he teaches you before da exam..naaa, a great bonus..hohoho!! smarter guy is cool.. next!! i like guy wif sense of humor!!! i love to laugh, and it'll be great if he can make me laugh everytime i'm wif him.. that would be lovely... without sense of humor, i think it'll be a very boring relationship..maybe? ahaha...okay, dont' you think it's getting very long post from me olredi?? ahaha..i'll stop for da mean time, but i guarantee you guys there'll be second part to tis..hohohoho..da summary for my post for today is :

characteristic that i'm looking for in a guy that i wanna date!!

1. Caring
2. share everything he thinks and about himself
3.smart guy
4.hav sense of humor


in a mean time, i just upload Xiah's pic!! i love tis guy too..kokokoko...^^

kicked out again??

aiyo...........

wat happen owh??

we're being kicked out from the hostel again...

cis..i thought our leader has done the hostel application thingy..

and yet bcoz of his delay on doing it, we're being kicked out....

kasian my other frens...

hav to move to kg E lagi....

huh...plz laaa....

complete da application for hostel....

we're willing to stay back ordy...

classical music.....

wow....i'm loving classical music little by little right now..it's just so calm to listen through it..refreshes and making my mind to stop thinking about unnecessary things that i shouldn't think about..and what encourages me to like classical music?? you see, one of my impossible dream ever is to learn play the piano....i just love da fact that piano have a great sound comes from it if you know to play it well...and, well, that's just what i like about piano...and i'm still dreaming to make myself good at playing it..two of my cuzzie know how to play piano..and yeah, i'm kinda jealous about that...their parents encourage them to play and willing to pay for da tuition fees..and it's not cheap you know..haish..wish that i can play too..then i just can pour out my heart in playing it...piano just an awesome music instrument..and there is a lot of amazing piece of piano from beethoven, chopin, mozart, bach, debussy, schubert and a lot more!!! wish that i'll manage to make tis only dream comes true someday...hohohoho.....


someday, i'll play YOU~!! *.*

my life so far.....

it's been over a week since i live alone in this room : E.3.03..
and it does bored me.....got no one to talk to..and hav to sleep alone..
at first, i couldn't sleep at all...it's scared me to sleep alone in tis big room..but, day by day, i get used to it already...and hey, it's for my future too...since i've joined robocon, i got to give my commitment to it....hope my holiday tat i spend solely for robocon will paid off..and help me to get a place in hostel~!!!! it would suck if i don't get it next sem~!! to continue my life here, me and my friends decided tat we would cook ourselves..since the other were boys, so i'm da one who's in charge of being a chef everyday..but hey, not bad too cause i can enhance my cooking skill using a rice cooker..hohoho..my everyday routine were stuck in tis room, and then cook, and then go to do works for robocon and then sleep...that's so lame,,,,,,wat to do laaa...tat's my entire life for this sem break..........

i'm being kicked out~!!!!

shit~!!
i'm being kicked out from my hostel...
tats mean, i'm going to have a really tight budget life next sem as i hav to be non-resident student if my rayuan didn't get to get me back in hostel~!!
tat would really suck~!!!
gosh..
i'm so sad....
i'm being kicked out...
budus~!!
arggghhhh....
:(

God of Study~!!

well, guess what, yesterday i spend my whole night watching tis korean drama, God of Study~!!
it's surely remind me a lot about my high school memories.....and i ended up sleeping at 8 a.m...
sadly, i didn't manage to watch it all..hish..until episode 10 only..and got 6 episode more...
that mean, i have to watch da rest of da episode with chinese subtitle..=.="
huhuhu..wat to do...i only got tat drama in chinese subtitle...cis..someday, i'll ask my friend to burn da drama with english subtitle in dvd~!! well, i think i have to start study my mandarin...da paper is da day after tomorrow...so, i want to score A in my mandarin coz mandarin is easy compared to my other subject tis sem..so, better for me to score A to help my pointer tis sem...hmm..will starting with memorizing da hanzi, then da stroke order and then conversation and then a lot more...hohoho..it'll be easier for me to study mandarin coz i am interested in da language itself...ok, for those wondering what da drama God of Study is all about, i'll post out some picture here~ hohoh...


i love tis guy~!! hohoho..he is juz so adorable in da drama.... kyaaa~~~ ^^

such a boring day...

juz wanna sa tat today is a boring day...
hihohihohiho....haiz....
i'll go nuts if tis is going to happen in my entire life....
i juz dunno wat to do today..
all i ever do today is watching some japanesedrama and of course online.
i need to find my new hobby to get rid of tis boringness in my life...
it's da same routine everyday in my life and i'm kinda tired of it u see..
i want to experience something new in my life..
like something extraordinary. ok, maybe thats juz too much but at least give me something to do..
oh ya...i juz remembered...i do got works to do during my sem break..
it's folding paper crane for about 500 of them and then helping my seniors building robots for da competition...aiyoh...ok, 500 paper crane??? tats juz a boring thing to do..but wat to do laa..it's juz my work for bon odori next sem..and wat is bon odori?? it's japanese cultural night..hohoho..wats intersting about it, it'll be held at 31st july~!! it's a day after my 20th bday~! it's seems tat i'll be celebrating my birthday preparing for da fiesta..hish...no fun...
and it's da first birthday tat my age reach 20~! whoops, i'm not a teen anymore...
hopes tat for our robocon, we'll be selected to go along wif our seniors to KL..hohoho..
i can assume tat a bonus for us...but still, i have to stay alone for this two month...gosh, tats juz so scary laaa....hopes that nothing happens when i stay in da hostel alone..huh...so, i gotta go..coz i need to take my bath~ hohoho..

matta ne~ ^^

in a glimpse...

eventhough it is juz in a glimpse....
i can see tat in ur eyes...
somewhere deep in ur heart, i know u hav da exact same feeling as me...
so, i wan to see...
how much longer tis situation can goes on...
juz maybe, u'll endured it, or juz maybe u'll juz say something about it...
i'm waiting for it...
and juz maybe it'll happen...
juz maybe....

words can't express my feelings?

yeah, it can express my feeling~ hohoho..juz a cliche before i start..
now and then, i have failed to express my feeling towards someone i like or appreciate..
i never do or success in any or these things, so never expect me to do if first...
i know i might sounded selfish, but hey, i won't do da first step....
it's juz me and u'll never be able to push me to do it...
even though i might be honest in expressing my opinion, doesn't mean i'll be tat honest in expressing my feeling tat easily...
i'm a very complicated girl~! there, i said it out olredi~!
okay, but if i let this feeling unspoken, wat will happen?? regret is da first thing tat ever comes in my mind~! second, maybe i'll juz hope tat someone will realize tat..(and it's rare~!!)..
so, wat my conclusion? shud i say it or shud i juz let go? huh, answer? let it be...if it's meant to be mine, it'll never run aways...not satisfied by my answer? well tats life~ it is unfair..Really~ haha...well, enough wif my blabbering, i shud get back on my study mode....

it's complicated...

tats exactly da word tat describe my situation rite now...
dunno wat you are thinking about...
neither wat should i do...
haiz..could u juz stop then?
i'm sick and tired of tis drama....
juz be normal like we used to be...
it's da best rite? and no hard feeling between us...

why oh why....

i dunno why......
today i was at my best behaviour and yet he ignores me???
wat was tat for?
it surely hard to understand one's behaviour..
wish i could noe wat were you thinking bout....
is there any mistakes or something tat u r not satisfied wif me?
gosh......and why i'm even bothered to think bout tis matter..
it doesn't matter to me, but yet if i do da same thing to you...
i just dun wan to do it to you again..
u noe how it's feel likes....
i'm hoping for a better tomorrow...
hoping tat u would talk~!
plz laa, you are not a kid anymore...
you juz could talk about it if you hav someting in your mind..
i am big enough to understand wat u'll tell me..
i hav brain ok....
dun let da feeling juz hanging there waiting to be exposed..
u know who u r..
i'm hoping u'll visit here sometimes to read tis post~
then u'll know......
juz maybe u'll know...

gosh, TWO PAPER IS DOWN~!!!

Just want to annouce here tats :
CAD and MATH paper is over~!!
wahahhahahaha.....
but still i got c programming and material left....
=.="
aiyo.......
hope i can get through tis........
fighting~!!!!

It's da DAY~!!!

officially, my FINAL EXAM START~!!!!!
huhuhuhu....i'm very worried........
GOD plz HELP ME~!!!
through tis time is not easy and yes i do need HELP....
hope i can get good pointer~!!!

ANNOYING~~!!! =.="

He owez annoys me~!!!

i dunno why but hey, it's my life and juz da way i am...

if you hates me, then juz walk away~!!

can't u juz say nice thing bout ather ppl~!!

duh....

i noe la u so great...

is hurting ppl's feeling's ur hobby kaa??

however, i'll try to see da bez in u even if u annoys me to death...

i noe human is not perfect...

and yes, it does apply to me~!

so, plz try accept me da way i am...

and tats how i'm going to accept you~!

and some weird feeling start to grow...

and if u still behaving like tat, i think i'll better stop growing tat "weird"

feeling toward you~

believe me, i can do it.....

Missing YOU.....

There's someone that i misses a lot rite now....
wonder how he's been doing by now.....
it's stupid of me to think of him everyday....
maybe it's juz me who think tat way....
gosh, how sad would it be if he's never thinking bout me da way i am....
maybe i meant nothing to him....

A song by Keri Hilson? ^^

I'm loving tis song by Keri Hilson...
It's Knock U Down...
da lyrics are great...
i keep rewinding da song~
"sometimes love comes around"
"and they knock you down"
"juz get back up when they knock you down"
kekeke...i love tis song~
Btw, it's almost 3 a.m and i juz can't sleep....
it's my fault for getting two cups of coffee juz now....
i'm getting panda eyes soon...=.="
right now, i'm studying math...(of course online at da same time..hehehe)
well, i hope i can finiz 4 chapter today....
fighting~!!! ^0^

IT's STUDY WEEK~!!!!!!!! =.="

Hey guys.....
finally it's study week....
gosh......
i dunno wat to do...
sda laaaa batuk2..
tambah lagi selsema...
mcm mna mo study ne...
aiyoooo.........
kepala pun pening2...
ish3........
ingat mo improve pointer......
but how can i do it?????? T.T huhuhuhu.....
ok, i heard nasi lemak calling~!!!
wahahahhaahaaa....
going to buy it fellas~
bye~~~~~

Amazing Friends~~

I got a lot of friend~
especially in tis age, i've met so many wonderful people in my life~
they always be there when i needed them..
even thought there's been so many up and downs in our friendship...
we'll always be together....
how lucky i am to have them in my life....
and most af all, i love you all~!

Tis is me and my friend~ ^^

Tis is manda and me~! <3


Tis is my coursemate~~!! owez havin' fun wif them~ ^^



Tis is my tutorial during matriculation~!! F1T5 ROCKZ~!! ^^ <3>

My Memories~~

Today is surely one of da moment where i hav fun but also feel disapointed because of da fact tat we hav work hard on our performance, but still we made a huge mistakes during our performance...haiz..... but still, i enjoyed it because, hey, it's our performance...Wonder wat kind of performance??? It's brassband...and i played da snare drum~!! it's fun, and i hope next sem we will do a better performance...

Wat will my FUTURE BABY looks like~!! kekeke

I just try tis on a website : www.morphthing.com

i upload some pic (wif a man tat i like of coz..kekeke) and then tis website will morph da pic into a chlid face...and it suspose to be how ur baby will looks like if you somehow belong to tat guy~~ ahaha..my baby is soooo cute~!! ^^here's da result tat i get~









tis is da result wif Mr X~~ aahha...ssooo cute~!! ^^

~WELCOME~ (^-^)

Wassup y'all? kekeke....

it's sylvia here...writing her first post....and i dunno wat i should write....

~ i'm a very complicated gurl
~ likes to be alone when she's in bad mood(beware, coz i might explode..kekekeke)
~ loves music....(can't live without it....)
~ happens to be very obsessed with korean culture..(i love it~!! ^^)
~ planning on travelling around the world when i have the chances later...
~ planning on living in other country(especially those with 4 season country~!)
~ is taking mechanical engineering course and next sem is my second year~ yay~
~ love silent...coz it'll make me recharge..kekeke..in terms of my brain.
~i love my two bez fren~!!















tis is my bez fren : nurul n anna~!! ^^


~ love rains, winter and spring~!!
~ love comics....
~ love DBSK~!!
~ most of all, i love JESUS...^^

okay, tats it for now...will write again next time~~~anyeong....